Day 183: I'm only here for this moment
At the start of January I wrote a post announcing that I was embarking once again on a daily self-portrait project (having done two years in a row from August 2006-2008). I wrote my reasons thusly:
-I miss the daily interaction with fellow photographers. Already a bunch of friends from that first 365 year have come out of the woodwork to comment on my first or second photo, plus it is a chance to let my newer friends get to know me as more than “that chick who takes naked self-portraits in abandoned buildings.” :)
-I need to learn my camera better. I've always been what I like to call an intuitive shooter, but I've seen enough photos from folks who actually know what they are doing to see that I need to suck it up and start studying. This gives me a good opportunity to put things into practice as I learn them. Recommendations for blogs/sites/books that explain things for morons (i.e. in the least technical jargon possible) are welcome!
So here we are six months later (with exactly half of the 366 photos done)! Where do I stand? Well part one of my reasons has exceeded my expectations. I've grown closer with friends and made new ones. I've enjoyed showing the many facets of my personality. Part two, on the other hand...well it turns out my intuitive shooting mode is a hard one to shake. I don't like reading instructions and I don't like having technical things explained to me. I have, however, spent time these six months trying new things and experimenting when I shoot. So there's that. I could do with watching some tutorials, perhaps. I'm also interested in figuring out a way to navigate around the Google+ photography community without feeling totally and instantly overwhelmed and running screaming from the room. Well, closing the browser. Whatever. I sense people are having fun there without me and I should get in there.
Another thing I've worked on that I didn't list in my initial reasons but did bring up later, is my fear of taking self-portraits in public. I have worked and gotten much better at it, though could stand doing it more often. I also stopped sitting on my ass wondering why nobody was asking me to go into abandoned buildings with them and found out where the community local to me was hiding. I connected with a great woman and new friend named Kathy and we've had several adventures together already. I have connected online with some others and hope to get out shooting with a small group soon.
I have had a lot of fun so far with this year of photos, though I have had more days than I ever did between 2006-'08 of feeling fed up and wanting to stop. Never tempted to stop, though. It's a point of pride for me (and stubbornness of course) to keep going. I am very proud of the photos I've created so far overall. There's only a small few that stand out to me as not being 'up to par' for where I want to be, but I will forgive myself. :) I also recognize that I have plenty more improving to do. I hope I always see it that way.
Personally, I see no real cohesive theme other than they are all of me. I've always struggled with whether or not I have a 'style' (though I see on in my abandoned self-portraits). What about you? Do you see a theme or general gist to my work? What do you think it tells you about me, if anything? I'd be interested to hear your thoughts!
Here's a slideshow I eked out using iMovie so I could add a bit of music and try to make it more an 'experience'. It's close to 8 minutes long, but my husband said he was interested the whole time (his mind usually wanders), so there you go. I mean, here you go: