I’m doing that push-pull thing again.
I guess it must be normal?
Whenever things are happening with my artist side, I’m immersed in it and feeling positive. Then things slow down; I’m not sure what to do next; and the next thing I know I’m realizing all my work is crap, I have no direction, and oh-my-god I have to get some client work going so I can make some money!
Then things start moving ahead with my other side, the event and portrait photographer side. I have a very fun gig lined up for tomorrow and Saturday as part of the University of Pennsylvania alumni weekend. I’m excited because I actually get to cover the art-related events. This will be a boon to my portfolio and hopefully lead to more of the same kind of work. But I need to get my presence out there for other work as well…need to take advantage of the holidays coming up and the fact that my daughter is in class that “graduates” middle school this year. I’ve decided emailing all the parents might be tacky, but if it leads to a few clients, then so be it.
And then I go back to wondering what I’m doing with my art. I have the opportunity to show at the wonderful & local to me shop Sweet Mabel during December for “Art Under $100”. Last year I showed TTVs so I want to do something different this time. Thinking of printing the rainy windshield images or the fruits/vegetables series. Which do you think would be better sellers?
I suppose you might be wondering about that regular paycheck I said I would get? I have been perusing listings, but my heart was certainly not fully in it. I have some freelance writing coming from Cecily soon that will be a good moneymaker and this weekend could be the start of some good money on a semi-regular basis. So I’m going to give myself a few more months (and recognize full well I might be fooling myself), and then see where things are.
I am thinking a lot about my goals for 2010. Things are gearing up with almost everyone I know for this year to be the one that makes a difference. I have been keeping up with the exercise and getting to recovery meetings more regularly (even chairing a meeting this month every Monday), and I’m slowly trying to adjust my eating habits. I feel better. With the time change it is dark really early again as it gets colder. My tendency is to want to hibernate and I’m fighting it. I don’t want to lose momentum.
I want to see if I can keep this seesaw I’m on balanced for a while.
